Hi, this is merbst.substack.com

More than any other descriptor, I am a thinker.

I have an insatiable curiosity on a myriad of topics, especially data, information, knowledge, conceptual semantics.

In the past, I was often shy about presenting my writings to a public audience. With Substack, I am growing comfortable with the idea of migrating my thousands of essays scattered around my Google Docs, Google Keep, Google Tasks, text files on 30+ hard drives (several no longer spinning), 1000s of YouTube comments, emails across 20 accounts, & many long rants in a dozen messaging apps.

Also I am proudly neurodivergent, but American society is indescribably cruel to people who have AuDHD like me. Due to various reasons downstream from my neurotype, I have been ostracized from productive employment in my own industry of software engineering that has been my primary hobby since age 5, so I am extremely frugal, because I know poverty well.

I would like to use Substack for networking with others who care more about knowledge and humanity than greed, who can help me find opportunities to earn an honest living. (I was falsely labeled a drug dealing pimp in court documents accepted as infallible evidence despite being worse than heresay by a former family member, although I have always rejected succumbing to the temptation of obtaining income through illegal means. Also, when my dad ran the official Lockheed Martin approvec emploment eligibility background check on me, they labeled me as a red flag drug dealer, based on my name being included among 2 million other signatures on a 2004 petition by NORML to place a referendum on the California state ballot for the legalization of Marijuana, which succeeded. I never heard why I never heard back from any job I ever applied to, but today is my 44th birthday and I would like to have a legal means of supporting myself and my fiancé. )